…words are weapons

…when words are wielded by those who are uncaring, unbelieving, and untruthful they become weapons that can hurt, maim, and devistate …simple words like “i’m sorry” can turn into daggers that cut to the bone …with yesterdays email from Kitten, i have been urged to modify my previous open response and send it off to her …this is unsetling to me …i still recall her words of reassurance …her saying “i love you” …confused lies presented as truths …she will defend herself to the end, admit no wrong …i can only tell you how i feel …how her words tore trhough my chest and cut my heart out …still beating, crushed under her foot …now being dragged through more turmoil because she has failed to file …failed to complete the things she has been saying she wants to do …she is not only failing me, she is failing who ever she is involved with …that’s right, she’s failing Simon …gives me very little pleasure in saying so, but come on …she wants this …she initiated this

…she is the one who believes that what we had was not worth fighting for …she says she tried …how? …she says she worked towards bettering our relationship …doesn’t that take my involvement somehow …she lies to herself as she did to me …she says i do not see how things were, that i look at the good and thats all i see …of course that is what i remember …i also know the bad …she does not see what i see …she does not see into my mind …she will continue to say she tried …she tried to get rid of me

…she succeeded

~ by zainmoribundi on 2009/07/16.